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Legutóbbi olvasó: 2024-05-02 17:31 Összes olvasás: 170563| 883. | [tulajdonos]: today | 2019-05-02 14:46 |
That has been a great day so far. I arrived at school quite shaken and shattered (m ydomestic life, or rather nuptual) to be faced with the total rejection of my loved one. He is full of vigour and totally indifferent. I gues e has successfully got rid of me or the moment has just finally come when it turns out to have been just a gross misunderstanding or delusion i dunno. What I know though, is that I was not surprised. Not at all. To be struck down at exactly that moment when I have finally abandoned all suspicion and started to trust his love, and by the way, the moment when I would have needed it most painfully. So the best timing. As usual.
If I weren't such a coward, I would kill myself now. Not because of him, but because it has become way too much to go on, to carry that growing amount of failure, pain and unbearable future what I have to. My horizon is empty of hope, joy or love. And it is my fault.
I am expected to have a positive attitude, a perspective. I can only lie them. No one to help as ever. I should bring my unloveable self together and fake something I have never had and never will have. |
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