NAPLÓK: nélküled
Legutóbbi olvasó: 2024-04-19 19:23 Összes olvasás: 169041808. | [tulajdonos]: h | 2019-01-16 19:31 |
the first time in my life i am loved back. if i were 20 yrs younger, i would be very happy now. as old as i am i feel strange. and responsible. we are responsible for the feelings we have helped awaken and heighten in other people. we are responsible for the ones we have made love us. even if it has been done together. we have done it to each other.
i don’t know what could come next. i don’t want to use him, to use that feeling for my selfish needs. i don’t want him to be harmed. it is scary to see he is in it, that he feels it as it makes him like everyone who has exposed his feelings to the other vulnerable. i don’t know what i have the right to do.
it is not so easy to commit adultery it seems. not just because of the one we cheat on, but because of the one we would cheat with. without love it would be much easier. but without love neither of us would do it.
i don't think there will be anything. maybe it will slowly die away. or abruptly because something unforeseen will happen. but it will not change the fact that against all the odds, at the age of 48, even if it's true only today, once in my life i have been loved back.
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